such a severe lack of connection I need to have communication so I can tell you whats gone wrong and you can tell me to be strong I'm gonna write of Love will I be accepted? will I be loved? will you be my love? no of course you won't forbidden love that is not merely by society but my mind as well as taboo as strange a fight within myself

aware as I breathe in and push out the smell of dip brings thoughts of you and the worries of today vacate their presence in my skin

did I tell you that I lied about wanting to cry and giving it a try my heart is yours to keep my hand is yours to abuse I do not doubt intent but I know regret if that piano could play my tune my fingers would give love to those keys

no i can't if i did I'd cry and crying means something is wrong-with me in me around me if i cry you're right and i don't want to be wrong; I don't want to be wrong i want to be well, and, well, I'm all wrong

if i look into my heart will i be loved? if i move closer will i be loved? if i live for today will i be loved? if i chase my dreams will i be loved? if I'm alive will i be loved? do i deserve to be loved? Oh God! tell me i'm loved i need to be loved...

if I'm alone then you should know that I do care and you're nowhere

like eagles flying over sea what is alone is powerful but I have strength of only fleas I try to fight but fear festers in my might

I'm bound to wait for you cuz it's just what I do so I sit here in my darkened room as I wait for you to count the steps twenty from where you are to me it feels like an eternity perhaps because you never planned to make the trip to save me from my gloom or did you simply forget distracted by women and the drink I couldn't wait any longer I took the window to my doom

muse

i wish i had a muse something to give me words to use but i have nothing but this stoic heart unused to words to grab at stars and unsure how to write my heart my soul my mind my love my time i need it all and i desire more just one stab at something right

held

held i wish you had held onto me in a hug an embrace why didn't you look into my face my eyes so full of pain they held the tears of your refrain and i couldn't tell you you wouldn't hear that i loved you and you walked out the door