i think it's done
and then the shiver
crawls down my back
i can't escape
my heart won't let me
my mind is reeling
i think i'm fading
you walked closer
my arms they freeze
then quickly I scramble
scribble- I've gotta get the words
onto paper before you see
my heart races
my hands tremble
my nerves scattered
you approach my side
I sigh,
relief
soft rays
luminescent
grace my face
I'm okay
I breathe in relief
the oxygen's returned
the night has cleared
I have control
I feel whole
why so intense?
these waves of pain
of fright-fear!
they steal my air
my chest heaves
tremors rack my knees
and my feet dangle free
I feel close to gone
I fear I'm falling down
I need support
I can't rely
not on you
well, not with him
he'll tear me down
he'll turn me out
don't let him laugh
please, don't laugh yourself
Thursday, January 15, 2009
I was steady
if not treading
you had to leave
I started drowning
falling into black
come back soon
bring me light
hope is my only lifeline
breathe in
breathe out
try to steady
try to calm
gotta hide
tell them lies
I can't cry
gotta fight
stop these tears
gather strength
I cannot cry
I can't let myself die
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
as if you want to be a fool
what is this? let's play it cool
did I just rhyme? this game is vapid
hello let's not knock your brain around
one of us needs to keep this together
it ain't gonna be me
not when you're off trying
to die? serious?
the blood coursing through my veins
matches only the adrenaline pumping in my heart
and the energy in this place is matched
only by the force of gravity between us two
the crowed erupts in cheers around us
but i have eyes only for you